To all my friends and family still on earth:
I want you to know that today finds me in Hell. Yesterday, I was exactly like you, I was eating, drinking, watching TV, playing video games, etc. As I was driving my car to an airsoft BB gun competition on Sunday morning, yesterday, I was hit by a drunk driver speeding down the street. I never saw him coming. It all happened so fast, I didn’t realize what had happened until it was too late. One minute I was listening to the loud music in my car, the next minute I was dead, floating above my mangled and wrecked car, looking at my lifeless, bloodied and torn body. It took me sometime as I watched the scene before me, glass still falling to the ground, tires still spinning while smoke and dust began filling the area around the wreckage. As I gazed upon my almost unrecognizable bloodied face, distorted from the metal and glass, it hit me hard…I was dead!
From out of nowhere, I felt an uncomfortable tug on the back on my arm as I was forced to spin around and began a journey down a long and dark tunnel. I began to smell a nasty gut wrenching order of burning hair and flesh as some of the most hideous creatures of all time began slapping and tearing at my flesh. They would stab through my skin and flesh with a red hot and jagged piece of metal, pulling back chunks of meat, this created the worst pains I have ever endured. These creatures would strike me hard with their hands and drag their long razor sharp fingernails across my body. This continued as I fought with every ounce of being I had left, as I fought, the creatures began to laugh and spit on my face. The more I fought the nastier they got.
As I was sliding down this long and really dark tunnel against my will, I caught a glimpse of what must have been heaven. It was the most beautiful place I have ever seen. The beauty and grandness of it all left me in awe. The colors were like none other, the music was beyond belief, all like nothing ever seen on earth. My entire desire was to be there in this place of complete beauty. From inside my head I heard a voice, I assumed was none other than Jesus, telling me that I had forfeited heaven and being with Him for all eternity. The sweet sound of His voice filled my head as He continued, while I was still alive I did not fully commit my life to Him and His teachings. I always knew that Jesus was real, but I never seemed to make that life-changing commitment to follow Him, to form a relationship with Him, to give my life to Him and to die of the world around me so I could live with Him throughout eternity.
I kept hearing Jesus repeat my sins to me – pornography, bad thoughts and language, dirty jokes, greed, envy, lust, drinking, lying, cheating and gluttony. And there was that abortion I had my girlfriend get back in high school. Jesus told me that He had sent me unlimited grace every day of my life, but that I had always rejected it in favor of sin, I turned it away to live for the things of the world. And since my lifestyle rejected His living water, that allowed Satan to take over my life, and eventually my death. I was able to tell Jesus by speaking in my mind that I really didn’t know what He expected of me, but He said that that was no excuse, since He had written it all down for me in the Bible. He had given me the sacraments in His church to strengthen me, and had sent His Mother and Her saints and angels down to earth many times to help me. He said that I preferred to play computer games, read dirty magazines, and watch TV over doing the will of God. He watched me listen to well meaning friends that led me even farther from the truth. He was hurt when I decided to take my life into my own hands and be the god of my own life, just as Adam and Eve did. He told me that He loved me so much that I got to choose what I wanted, Him or Satan, heaven or hell. He told me that since I truly preferred the temporary things of the earth, rather than everlasting heavenly things, that I got my wish to not go to heaven upon death. And the really sad thing is that He told me that all I had to do was to make one sincere confession to be forgiven for everything.
Now, I am surrounded by millions of snakes and worms, unrelenting fire, loud noises and screams, a horrible stench, and terrible looking demons who torture me day and night. And I cannot move any part of my body on my own. Knowing what I threw away is the most depressing part, along with the fact than I am NEVER getting out of this place and that I am devoid of God completely. If only I had listened to the Church’s teachings instead of “thinking for myself”, or listening to my so called friends that led me away from the one true Church to follow a man that says he knows the truth. It never entered my mind while I was still alive that I could be wrong about anything, especially about salvation. I always considered it a strong virtue to “think for myself”, and it was always a weak vice to listen to anyone, especially some old-fogey church, telling me what to believe and how to live my life when I had it all figured out.
Now, I would gladly give up every penny I ever made to be sent back to earth for 5 minutes, but that will never happen. I, along with millions of other humans, were victims of Satan’s great deception, which fooled me into believing that I would never die. I was under the impression that self-pride was a good thing, that the sexual pleasures of earth were more important than obeying His commandments, that the real goal of life was the pursuit of wealth and to be surrounded by beautiful possessions, and that there would always be time to repent of my sins before dying. I really wish someone would have told me about Matthew 25:31-46 and what I was held accountable for during life. But no one ever did or if they did, I didn’t listen, I wouldn’t have it. And I never seemed to find the time to open the Bible and read what it said. That was as stupid as never reading my college textbooks in preparation for the final exam.
Satan disguised himself as an angel of light many times during my earthly journey, and I was totally taken in by him – the beauty, the glamour, the glitz, the power, the sex, the money, the feel-good mentality, being entertained all the time, etc. I also believed everything the secular media ever said, instead of meditating on His Word to find out The Truth for myself. His bait of sexual gratification seemed wonderful at the time, but it had lots of poison in it, which I know about now, when it is too late. The TV I watched that slowly but surely desensitized me, made me think it was alright to live my life without God, after all, everyone was doing it.
So now that you know my story, what will you do with your life? Like me, you may not have tomorrow to decide. Will you follow me to hell, or will you follow Jesus to heaven? The choice is yours, and only yours, to make, today.
Sirach 15:15-17: If you will, you can keep the commandments, and to act faithfully is a matter of your own choice. He has placed before you fire and water: stretch out your hand for whichever you wish. Before a man are life and death, and whichever he chooses will be given to him.
Matthew 7:13-23: “Enter by the narrow gate; for the gate is wide and the way is easy, that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard, that leads to life, and those who find it are few. “Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing but inwardly are ravenous wolves. You will know them by their fruits. Are grapes gathered from thorns, or figs from thistles? So, every sound tree bears good fruit, but the bad tree bears evil fruit. A sound tree cannot bear evil fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit. Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. Thus you will know them by their fruits. “Not every one who says to me, `Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. On that day many will say to me, `Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’ And then will I declare to them, `I never knew you; depart from me, you evildoers.’
Matthew 25:31-46: “When the Son of man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, then he will sit on his glorious throne. Before him will be gathered all the nations, and he will separate them one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats, and he will place the sheep at his right hand, but the goats at the left. Then the King will say to those at his right hand, `Come, O blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world; for I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me.’ Then the righteous will answer him, `Lord, when did we see thee hungry and feed thee, or thirsty and give thee drink? And when did we see thee a stranger and welcome thee, or naked and clothe thee? And when did we see thee sick or in prison and visit thee?’ And the King will answer them, `Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brethren, you did it to me.‘ Then he will say to those at his left hand, `Depart from me, you cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels; for I was hungry and you gave me no food, I was thirsty and you gave me no drink, I was a stranger and you did not welcome me, naked and you did not clothe me, sick and in prison and you did not visit me.’ Then they also will answer, `Lord, when did we see thee hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or sick or in prison, and did not minister to thee?’ Then he will answer them, `Truly, I say to you, as you did it not to one of the least of these, you did it not to me.’ And they will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.”
John 15:4-7: Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in me, and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing. If a man does not abide in me, he is cast forth as a branch and withers; and the branches are gathered, thrown into the fire and burned. If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you will, and it shall be done for you.